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Its official. School officially sucks. i hate my schedule. i dont know what i was thinking when i signed up for some of my classes, but i can do it. Hardly anyone is in any of my classes and if they are they sit no where near me. i have like the same people and all my classes and none of my friends. urr i hate it. my dad wants me to take classes at ysu next yr so ill only have like 1 or 2 classes at boardman, i think i might do that. i hate this school. well im done complaining.
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| so long sweet summer. |
[05 Sep 2005|04:00pm] |
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Well summers over. Everyones acting like theyve never heard the phrase "back to school" before. Im not excited to go back to school but its nothing new, we've only been doing it for the past 10 years. This has beena really good summer but i dont feel the need for a depressing entry about how this oh so great summers over. we only have 1 real summer left so im going to make the best of it. this one was fairly good but it had its downs too. i mean doing the same thing every night isnt exactly exciting. Maybe it was due to a good raising and a less than thrilling location. oh well it was fun while it lasted and went out pretty good. i spent my last night of summer getting my yeehaw on at the chris cagle/ brad pasiley concert. and today i spent a good portion of the day shopping with my sister.
ive also learned alot from this summer, mainly from being stupid:
- first impessions arent important, last ones are.
- my natural hair color.
- who my true friends are.
- some people you can only depend on to be undependable.
- i hate driving.
- i would rather have an expirence and end up hurt than never have it at all.
- some dreams werent meant to come true.
- my priorities have changed.
- my goals have also changed.
- i want to meet a boy who owns a pair of wranglers.
- i get offended when someone doesnt know who a country singer is.
- life itself isnt very valuable, its the things and peopel in it that male it worth while.
- orange is decaff brown is regular... i think.
- who i really am.
- endless other things.
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| tell me bout them good ol days. |
[29 Aug 2005|04:53pm] |
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Today Natalie and I went back and visited st.charles. It was really sad, we didnt really recognize any of the kids except some of my sisters friends. I dont like having to get let in by some random lunch mom and talking to the office to let us in. Sister was happy to see us and told us we could go into the teachers lounge to visit them but we decided that we would be much better off in the bathroom peeing in our old stalls untill lunch was over. So the lunch bell rang then we went and sat in Mrs. Weitzmens room untill she got in there. All the little dudes walking in were saying "yes! we have a substitute" that made me feel really old. So she came in and we chatted with her, that was a good first start. Then we ran into beasley, ritter, and britt in the hall and talked to them for a little bit. mrs. beasley kept saying omg i cant believe you guys are going to be juniors. after that we went and visited miss fuety and whitenburger.
When I came home my sister was like "why were you at my school today! i hate when high school kids go back and pretend like there best friends with the teachers" shell get older and be so hypocritical. i like being able to have the "best friend" relationship with my old teachers even if it is pretend. I remember hating it there and wanting to leave, now all i want to do is go back. I had a set group of friends and they would always be there no matter what. they didnt talk about each other and cause stupid high school drama. The teachers knew every single one of us and actually cared about what happened to us. Natalie and i were talking a few days ago and me and alex today about how we dont even remember what it feels like to wear a uniform and walk in the damned circle. I wish i wouldnt have let that school intimidate me, i wish i wouldve actually gotten a pink slip instead of my occasional close calls. i miss the innocence of being so young and nieve.
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[25 Aug 2005|04:02pm] |
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im very bored, very upset, and very bit up.
Well i started work yesterday. my clothes now wreak like grease. when i got home my brotehr and sister still werent home from school (haha.) so later that night i went to sams house and alex made me a present (thank you very much lol) glue dries clear you know. me and natalie decided to escape for a while so we could talk and stuff. and as i was turning onto leffingwell some asshole ended up beind me and tried to pass me on tippiecanoe because i dropped my phone under the seat and was going like 2. then i got driving sober agian and he tried to pass me so i sped up cause this dude was pissing me off and he had to get back behind me cause i car was comming it was very amusing. then when we turned he finally passed me so i felt the need to tail him since he had to get up to 60 to pass me in the first place. it was really fun. and the whole time natalie was sitting there saying "were gonna die". so on the way home we turned off the radio and were screaming old school raps. it was pretty much fun.
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Ive been pretty busy lately. havent really had time to update. Incase anyone cares ill let you people in on a little bit of my life.
tuesday- i was at geauga lake that made me sick. but it was fun.
thursday and friday- i was at cedar point and the mantis gave me a huge headach all day and i got extremly burnt but its ok that was fun too.
saturday- basically spent the whole day with alex and she had a party that night and it was really fun =).
sunday and monday- i was in niagra falls. i had to translate for my dad alot, which i find myself doing more and more often, kinda scary. but that was fun also. so yea havent really seen any of you guys lately, fill me in on your lives. oh and as soon as i got home yesterday alex and jeanine call and say that theyre comming to pick me up so we went and got coffee then to see the longest yard. after that was over we went to sams for a little bit and then back to my house to watch laguna beach.
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[16 Aug 2005|01:16pm] |
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Last night was pretty milky. Alex picked me up at like 7 and we went and got coffee and sat in the car and drank it and i said the word milky like referring to what a 3 year old calls milk so alex chocked. then met a bunch of people at the park and we swung and went and spun around on the tire swing and got really sick and found some big mac that i picked up with a stick. Then everyone went to steak and shake for milkshakes but me and alex didnt feel like going cause we were already sick so me her and natalie went to wal-mart where we stood or atempted to stand in clothes racks and say "pick me pick me" and glued some change to the floor and stuff but alex chickened out so me and natalie had all he fun so then we bought hair dye and we went back to my house and me and alex died our hair "red copper spritz" then at like 10:30 we went to sams house for a little bit. and heres some documentation of our hair dying expirence. ( whaddaaa )
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Well today was loads of fun. I actually got to sleep in then when i woke up me and my sister went to panera for lunch. Then i got ready and stuff and i went over natalies and got a dress and got more ready over there. Then David and Coutney came over and we took pictures and headed to ( club L )
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as you can tell i was highly bored..
1. What are your initials? CLC
2. Does your printer print fast & well? after a good kick
3. Do you have shoes on? nope
4. Are there any lights on in the room? no just whatevers comming from the comp.
5. How many days of school left do you have? 2 years worth + college.. as for this year its summer.
6. What are you going to do right when you get out of school? already happened
7. Are you going to be sad that you are leaving? not particularly
8. What was your last entry about? danielles party
9. In the last IM you sent, what did you say? bye to andy
10. What is your favorite crayon? all of um
11. Have you ever gone streaking in the winter? probably
12. What time did you go to bed last night? 1 ish
13. Are any of your great grandparents still alive? no
14. What era do you wish you lived in? i think it woulda been coll to lived in like the 80's as like the age we are now not as babys.
15. If you were stranded in the forest, what would you do? run around naked and climb trees
16. What is your layout of?umm kinda orange
17. Have you ever thought of when the world ends? alot
18. What exercise equipment do you own? tredmill, bike thingy, this thingy, and other stuff i dont use.
19. Are you wearing a watch? no
20. What brand is your shirt? american eagle
21. Are your toenails painted? yes pink, but its chipped horribly
22. Are you going to take a shower after this? no
23. How many stories is your house? 5
24. Have you ever shocked yourself? probably
25. Have you been hit by lightning? no, but itd be an interesting expirence
26. Have you ever been swimming while it was raining? yes
27. Do you usually tan or burn? tan
28. Have you ever been in a tanning salon? no
29. What kind of surveys do you like to take? none
30. Have you ever flashed a guy? yes
31. Have you ever given out your # to some random person? yea, well only under special circumstances.. usually i give out natalies and polay it off as my own.
32. What do you think about online dating? fags.
33. Are you scared of the dark? depends on if i know whats around me
34. Do you ever study? occasionally
35. Do you say that you will never raise your kids like your parents raise you? when im mad.. but no my parenst did good.
36. How many kids do you want? 2-3
37. Are you scared of giving birth? ehh
38. Do you think you're annoying? i can be
39. When was the last time you were extremely sick? i dunno. im never extremly sick.
40. What is your favorite underwear? my pretty ones
41. Do you wish Xanga had forums? dont use it
42. Have you met anyone on Xanga? " "
43. Would you date someone more than 10 years older than you? not currently
44. Where are you planning on living when you get older? not sure
45. Have you ever been to the Naval Academy? no
46. Do you know your family history? some
47. Do you like to make lots of screennames & link them all together? no
48. What is the most overused smiley? =P or =)
49. What is the most overused word online? lol
50. Do you like the movie "Napoleon Dynamite"? hate it
51. Would you ever name your kid Napoleon? no
52. Do you own a beanbag chair? no
53. What magazines do you get? seventeen
54. Do you wear a lot of hemp? no
55. Do you play handball? no
56. Do you find yourself daydreaming a lot? mmm.. i dunno
57. What is your home football team? Spartans
58. What is your home basketball team? --^
59. When was your last shave? today
60. What parts of your body do you shave? the usual
61. Do you like open or enclosed areas? depends
62. Do you like being alone or around a lot of people? around people
63. Do you think what type of music a person listens to says a lot about them? some people. not all
64. Will you have a job over the summer? i guess
65. What what your last search online? i dont know
66. Do you own a poodle? no
67. Type whatever word comes to your mind. mind
68. Close your eyes & grab something. battery
69. Try to describe feet in as many words as you can. i hate them. ew. im also pretty ocd and cannot sleep if they are remotly dirty.
70. Do you have a dirty mind? yes
71. Do you have a maid? no
72. Do you make your bed every morning? hell no
73. What day of the week is your favorite? friday during the school year
74. Would you be capable of making your own survey? probably
75. How long have you been online? 9 hrs. 23 mins. but away for most of it.
76. Does your best friend annoy you? yes... jk
77. Is there someone you don't talk to but wait online for them all the time? nooo
78. What is your definition of "love?" i dont know
79. Do you find your life fascinating? not really.
80. Name one person. andy
81. Why did they come to your mind? his IM box is at the bottom of the screen
82. What kind of cake do you like? ice cream
83. Do you sing in the car? yep
84. Has anyone ever caught you picking you nose? no.
85. What toppings do you put on your ice cream? nothing usually
86. What word is shorter when you add 2 letters to it? short
87. How many situps can you do in a minute? alot
88. Type whatever lyrics come to your head. load up on guns.. bring ur friends.
89. Have you ever fallen down the stairs? most likely
90. What 2 colors are best together? alot with alot.
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[10 Aug 2005|12:32am] |
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So guess what...
... i got a job! at dun dun dun.. wendys! yess lol. New car in my future.
so i guess the theme was "we got ( punk'd )
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| And im still not sure if im getting better or just used to the pain. |
[03 Aug 2005|11:13pm] |
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Hellooo. Ive been thinking lately. And ive been in a really good mood and like 90% sincerly happy. Im just waiting for the downfall that always comes after being happy. I think it started today, but im still in a good mood. I dont even care if my friends start drama, im not getting involved, i can get by without them,not easy, but do-able, i mean 2 more years no ones gonna give a damn about what happened in high school. I think i only have like 1 or 2 friends, if that, who arent bitches and i dont really care. Ive basically learned to not attach myself to anything/ anyone so when its gone im ready. The only people who i know are always gonna be there and who i love more than anything are the ones who i cant detach myself from and those are the only ones who matter. I think i've changed alot over the summer physically and mentally i just feel older and more mature. Ive been haning out with different people alot too. I like my life right now. And im not gonna let anyone prevent me from that.
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Happy 17th Birthday Carrie!! Here's a re-cap of your birthday gift. And for all of you who arent Carrie heres what me and alex got her.
( present!! )
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today was probably like the bestest day ever. first me and marissa went on an adventure and got all dirty (not with each other pervs!) then i went to taco bell later with my mom and i won a burrito by dropping a quarter into that spinny thing! then i went to laurens and swam so here are a few pics from that:
( whaaa!! )
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| bunyons onions funions... |
[28 Jul 2005|10:50pm] |
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Today was pretty suckie/fun.
Let's seee first i woke up at 5 because my brother had a friend sleep over and they were like screaming so i tried to go back to sleep and only made it till like 8 cause they wouldnt shut up. Then at 8:15 Jill calls me and asks me if i was comming to babysit cause i was suppossed to be there 15 minutes ago and i was pretty positive i didnt have to go untill friday but i was wrong. So i had to get ready in like 5 minutes and yea.. that was fun.
Then i came home and got a shower and stuff and then i was about to leave to go to Katies party and my car wouldnt start! i was really mad. so my dad like lifted the hood up and i found a butterfly, but it was dead, really sad.
So my mom had to bring me to Katies house and it was really fun after a while. Me and Natalie are oficially awesome. Apperently im to open about sexuality haha thats okay. So then me maria and lauren stood on sams car and he started driving then some lady was like taking his license plate number or something so we got scared and all got inside his car. Annnnndd megan lauren and me stood on rocks and made sexual poses and stuff. purtty good time. Then sam took me home.
Ive also not been in the mood to update lately so i probably wont unless something spectacular happens or somehting but i might still once in a while.
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| Something to reflect on.. |
[21 Jul 2005|12:59am] |
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Well today started out pretty shitty. Actually the past few days have been shitty. I even had a bit of an emotional break down earlier. Then i think i had an awakening. Just as i was about to hit and all time low and shatter into a million pieces a very good friend of mine IM's me and tells me that a very good friend of his died and his body was just found. Well needless to say i was speechless. But the moment he told me that i felt like i ginormous boulder which had been crushing me had been lifted. Isn't it ironic as how just as im about to crack someone comes along with a story 10 times worse than mine and makes all my already stupid problems seem that much stupider? This happens to me all the time. Like when that tsunami happened in december i was also in a pretty low state and nothing mayjor has happened since 9-1-1 and everything was chaos, then that happens and everybody stops obsessing in their own little world and makes christmas more meaningful by letting you see that there are other people out there than just yourself. He said "its like bad things make your life a little better in a totally unselfish way." It kinda makes you feel guilty even responsible almost. The way things work out takes your tiny little world and puts it on a much larger scale. Timing is a very scary thing...
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[20 Jul 2005|01:16am] |
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So today.. well i guess yesterday now i met up with my dad at smokey bones and followed him to my new dentist. Yay i dont have to go to pittsburg anymore =). I was pretty excited to see him cause i wanted totalk to him and had stuff to talk to him and ihadnt seen him in a few days, but e didnt really care. shouldnt have expected him to since weve had this conversation before. so i went to the dentist. i have perfect teeth. go me. the nurse lady told me my mouth was bleeding because i didnt floss enough. i was like no im pretty sure its because ur jabbing my gums with big metal daggers. she also said i was one of the best brushers shes ever seen which doesnt surprise me since i brush my teeth obsessivly. then i followed my dad home. it was just like driving with him. he was critiquing me when i got home which is exactly why i never drive with him. Then later i went to megans. And i was in a pretty bad mood all night. I feel so distant from everyone. i like being in my car driving somewhere listening to music. I hate being in a crowded room and feeling so left out. im not tired at all. i wish someone interesting would getonline so i could talk to them till 3 in the morning then go take a shower and maybe go to bed.
take back your broken promises.
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I don't have anything to say. My lifes on repeat. But i was just tired of looking at the old entry.
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| Don't tell me what i want to hear |
[10 Jul 2005|02:48pm] |
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Good Afternoon. Yesterday i got new neighbors on our street. The cultural barrial has been broken. Some type of chinese or japanese or vietnamese w.e. some type of nese people moved in across the street. Its not bad or anything just a new expirence for my street. Yesterday i also got a penny thrown at my car and i was pretty pissed seeing as how now there is a large ding in it. So i was like freaking out and alex was trying to calm me down and when i took her home her dad and grandpa looked at it and her dad said it didnt look like a penny could cause the mark and her gradnpa said it might have but i dunno im pretty positive that mark was not there unless it happened just that day. But my dad hasnt mentioned it so hopefully he wont. Pray for me. Anyway so today i called Marissa to go get some coffee and whatnot but she couldnt go so i went anyways and on my way pulling out of barnes and noble there were all these sirens and policemen and then like 500 motorcycles and it took forever i actually finished my coffee while waiting for them to pass and watched some lady almost get pancaked by a semi after she got frustrated and decided to make a right turn from the left turning lane at the exact same time the semi who was actually in the right lane decided to turn right, as stated by law, he was aloud to do unlike the stupid bitch lady. But the semi stopped avoiding a collision by like an inch. i was sorta dissappointed, that would have kept me occupied for a while. oh well. Thats pretty much all i have to say for now.
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[08 Jul 2005|11:40pm] |
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Today was a very productive day id say. I woke up at 7:30 and took a shower then at 9 me and lindsay went job hunting! yess. we got 15 applications. And some black girls weree there to geeting applications! ugh, they stole our idea. duumb bitches. So then we came home cause she had to babysit at 1 and i filled all of mine out then i called alex and asked her if she wanted to go turn them in with me cause i was afraid to go by myself and good thing she went cause we almost got kidnapped in the mall by this crazy stalker guy. So then we like sprinted to my car and got in and made sure there were no creepy stalkers. Then we called marissa and they were al at barnes and noble and we didnt wana spend our friday night there like LOSERS! =P jk so we decided to go check out the st.christines festivle and that was kinda gay and we spent all our quarters gambling and didnt win anything =( so we both had to break 20's at wal-mart. So yea, after the festivle we were driving around and i was liek hey lets go cd shopping at walmart! (cause there cds are really cheap) and shes liek no i dont go there at night its dangerous and im like bitch your going and shes like waaaa, ok but only if you get a good parking spot (ok, so that was a little dramatic) so i got a front row spot so i was liek ha! good enough for you?! and she was like yess.. (painfully). So we went and cd shopped and i didnt get either cd i wanted cause they didnt have the rooney one i wanted and the one they did have was to expensive for what i was going for. So i ended up getting nirvana and the white strips (im awesome i know) and alex got the killers which i totally forgot i already had untill we got in the car! sorry al. if you didnt open it yet, dont! maybe you can bring those things back? i dont know. and that pretty much sums up my day.
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Well tonight i stayed home because "ive been going out every night this summer." So i wanted to go buy some cd's but i wasnt aloud to have the car. Which i kinda understand cause i feel bad ive been taking it everynight. So i sat in my garage for about 45 minutes maybe? i dont know i lost track of time. And i think i had an awakening lol. But yea i did alot of thinking. Anyways.. since i was ordered to document.. Last night i picked alex up for our date. We went shopping and it wasnt very successful. She made me buy a yellow shirt.. its cute but would look better in black lol. We bought some on sale jewelery also. And a cookie monster cookie, the more i think about that the more ironic it sounds. In case you didnt know cookie monster likes to eat all the cookies that he sees and then they put him on a cookie! I find it amusing. Maybe im just weird. Then we went to dinner. We decided to go all out and get strawberry dacaries, virgin of course. Then we ate and thats pretty much where the night ended. I wanted to go with alex to figure out how to pump gas and to re-fill the tank for my dad since ive been using his car but i totally forgot.
So like saturday or sunday morning/early afternoon i want to go to barnes and noble and maybe get some coffee and stuff anyone wanna come?
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| Can't you see i want you by the way i push you away. |
[02 Jul 2005|07:29pm] |
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Yesterday: spent 28 hours straught with alex. lol she slept over thursday night then we woke up at 7:15 after about 3 hours of sleep so she could take my mom somewhere then went to breakfast with casey, marissa, lyndsie, ernie, and natalie. Went and picked my mom up. went around then went to caseys for a little bit then she took me to take my driving test. seriously, who would let me drive? are they stupid. lol guess so. Then we went to carries later and passed lauren and we could hear her gasp when she saw me driving lol.
today: spent all day at my uncles in Canton. didnt swim because the water was 98 degrees so it was like pointless.
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